It has to start somwhere...

...and it might as well be now. 

I don't think I have the courage to actually type how much I weigh.  But know this...its a lot.  And I'm not proud of it.  I just found a diet blog from a girl that used to blog about babies and getting pregnant and that whole journey.  Now, she is blogging about losing weight.  She has totally inspired me.  In a little over a year she has lost almost 80lbs!  I would LOVE to be 80lbs lighter.

So, I thought...why aren't I?  How did I even get to this point?

I remember being in high school and trying to starve myself because someone told me that for my height I was overweight (by 7 lbs...).  I weighed 122lbs and I tried desperately to get down to 115lbs.  What I wouldn't give to be back at 122lbs.

In any event, I know I will never be 122lbs again and that's ok.  But what isn't ok is my current weight.  I have 2 kids and a husband and I want to be here for a long time for them.  I don't want all of the complications that come with being overweight.  I'd rather worry about something else. 

So what am I going to do?  Lets think about this logically.  I need want need to lose close to 100lbs.  Its not going to happen over night.  I need to give myself a time frame. Hmm...a year?  100lbs in a year...that's 8.3lbs a month and roughly 2lbs a week.  I know that's a safe amount to lose in a week, but is it too aggressive or not aggressive enough given my starting point?  Well lets start there I guess. 

May 1st is next week...makes sense to start at the beginning of month, right?  Now I am seeing how I got here, I think. ;)

Well starting next week is ok, if I will take it serious.  I need meal plans and workout plans and short term goals and a way to keep myself accountable throughout all of this.

So my goal for this week is to find meal ideas..and get the junk food out of the house.